As if life weren't "exciting" enough, at rounds this morning I was informed that Little One would be transferred. That's right. We are leaving Toronto.
I felt a mix of excitement, nervousness, stress, anxiety (mainly over figuring out the logistics of things) and sadness (I really am going to miss Mount Sinai since it was my life for the past two months.). Everything happened so quickly and I feel sad that I won't get to say goodbye to everyone. I wanted to say goodbye to all the nurses and doctors who took care of Little One, as well as all the mommies I became friends with while their babies were in the NICU and Level 2 Nursery with Little One.
Little One will be air lifted to "the closest big city" to the Island sometime in the morning. Whether or not I will be able to fly with her is yet to be determined. I hope I can get on the air ambulance with her. If not, this raises a whole new set of worries and anxiety for me.
I just can't get over how quickly things go here. Everything just happened so fast. One minute, we're all settled into a nice routine and comfortable with all the nurses, the doctors, the schedules...and the next minute we are getting transferred.
We will be a little bit closer to home, but still two hours away. Oh well. Everything regarding Little One's birth has been dramatic (including her entrance into the world). I guess it would be silly to think that the rest of her life will be anything less than exciting and action-packed.
Little One is worth all of the craziness I've had to go through over the past sixty-three days. As hard as it has been to go through having a preemie in the hospital for two months and having to do it without my husband with me, I would do it again if I had to. Whenever I look at her perfect little face, I want to cry. I keep thinking that we made her!!! Seriously! Hubby and I made this perfect little human being! We made a human being! It's not like making a cake or anything! It's unbelievable.
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OMG Chris! It's not like making a cake or anything! You are hillarious!
I am so glad I was able to spend time with you while you were in TOronto. I am happy to have been a part of LO's early days. You are such a strong person Chris. This whole experience just proves how strong
Have a safe transfer and remember that you are so close to going home with LO.
Hi Chris, What great news!!! one step closer to being home with Little One! I can only imagin how you must feel!!! I really hope that you can go with her!
Take care and keep us posted on how the transfer went!!!
kisses
Steph
Christine,
i am so happy LO is healthy and strong enough to leave TO to go closer to home. I am so sad that we won't get to say good bye and spend more time together. Things really do change on a dime around there!
If you need ANYTHING, including a lift or drive please let me know
lol oh chrissy you are too funny! it's not like making a cake! i never thought of it that way but you are so right. i mean it really is amazing to make a person isn't it? its a miraculous thing
sad we didn't get to say goodbye or go for a goodbye coffee but we will see you guys in the summer -we'll bring the kids for a trip if you don't have students,
C, one day you will look back at all this and just smile. You're going to be OK! =)
So this means you get to sleep in your own bed with your loving hubby?
I bet he's running around cleaning right now ;-)
I hope the transfer goes smoothly and that you are able to ride along with her. And if you can't, that you are at her side very quickly.
We're all thinking of you guys!
Yay! This is good news, it means your little girl is growing up. :)
I've been out of the blogging loop for a little while. Stopped by to say hello and Happy New Year!
I pray that all continues to improve with the little one.
God's richest blessings to you and your family.
Do you have a place to stay in the new place, or are you going to have to spend $$$ on a hotel? Or will you stay home and commute? (That makes the most sense, probably...)
At least at only 2 hours away, J can come and see you more, if you're near the hospital. I sure hope you're able to fly with her.
Did they give you an estimate on how long before she can go HOME?
So glad that I got to meet you and little one while you were staying here in Mt. Sinai. So happy that everything is going well and you are one step closer to taking that little angel home.
Look forward to hearing about the new hospital. Please keep in touch.
~ humps
I know you were hoping for her release, but she's still progressing towards that and it will happen soon! Have a safe trip and we look forward to the details. Be well hon, it's going to be alright :)
I'm so happy that you're making your way closer to home. I'll bet your hubby will be able to visit much more frequently!!!
Lots of love!
xoxo
It's nice you're getting closer to home. You should save these entries somehow for when she grows up.
Wonder the best way to do that. Anyone know?
Yea C
I can hear this song by "Grand Funk Railroad", playin' in the background!
"Everybody, listen to me,
And return me, my ship.
Im your captain, Im your captain,
Although Im feeling mighty sick.
Ive been lost now, days uncounted,
And its months since Ive seen home.
Can you hear me, can you hear me,
Or am I all alone.
If you return me, to my home port,
I will kiss you mother earth.
Take me back now, take me back now,
To the port of my birth.
Am I in my cabin dreaming, or are you really scheming,
To take my ship away from me?
Youd better think about it, I just cant live without it.
So, please dont take my ship from me.
Yeah, yeah, yeah ...
I can feel the hand, of a stranger,
And its tightening, around my throat.
Heaven help me, heaven help me,
Take this stranger from my boat.
Im your captain, Im your captain,
Although Im feeling mighty sick.
Everybody, listen to me,
And return me, my ship.
Im your captain, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Im your captain, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Im your captain, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Im your captain, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Im getting closer to my home ...
Im getting closer to my home ...
Im getting closer to my home ...
Im getting closer to my home ...
Ohhhh ...
Im getting closer to my home ...
Im getting closer to my home ...
Im getting closer to my home ...
Im getting closer to my home ...
Oh C, this is so wonderful. Not quite home yet, but close, so close. Hopefully it will only be a week or so and then you can go home to stay.
Safe travels tomorrow.
hi c!
i hope the baby had a safe trip and that you guys are getting settled in. just a few more weeks til you're back home.
Oh C, I am so just so happy and proud of you all. This has been such a roller coaster journey, and I hope that this transfer will be a smooth ride leading to home very soon. Wishing you all the best this week and keeping you all in my thoughts.
I hope that you and LO are little closer to home today! Do you have a place to stay in the city? If things are still the same as when J was born there is a room at the Hosp that they rent out to parents for a very small amount. I paid 10 bucks for the night. It's nothing fancy, but you're right there. If that option doesn't work I have a futon and a set of bunks with a bus stop just around the corner!
Hope all is well and keeping my fingers crossed that you both will be Island bound in no time!!1
Hugs
Barb
hi c - it's me again!
omg - the word ver is:
canker!!!!
gross
ha ha
hope all is well with you and the baby
I am soooo happy for you C!!!!! Coming closer to home must be a great feeling, although I do understand your worries. It is so great to hear that you will be that much closer to home though. Now hubby can come visit more and life you said, you're one step closer to being home to stay!! Hope the transfer went well and everything is OK. Keep us all posted. Hugs!!
Patti
Oh happy days! PLEASE let us know how you're doing... we are praying and wishing and hoping and thinking beautiful, beautiful thoughts!
And I'm singing... "I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love... I'm in love with a beautiful girl!"
I hope the transfer went well and that you're all settling in and doing well.
And I'm sure you make a mean cake :)!
That's awesome news that baby girl is going to be closer to home, closer is good!
I hope convenience-wise it will work, but I'm sure you'll find a way ... it's been such a crazy, wonderful journey. All worth it for your perfect little bundle.
The only thing I regret is that I never got the chance to visit you when you were here, while I was so close, too. It's been absolutely crazy for me and the family, so I know that you understand.
Now I'll have to visit the island for sure, don't you doubt it!
Take care, and I'm sure you're glad to be home with your great hubby too...
Things are going to fall into place in no time! good luck with the transfer
I hope you and the little one are doing well in your new location!
Congrats to you and little one!
Let's hope no news is good news, C.
Hope all is well with you and little one and that you are settled into your new digs.
Peace!