Thursday, October 02, 2008

Everything is changing


While out on the farm this morning before settling down in the office for a day filled with correcting essays and working on various ESL projects, I noticed that the leaves are definitely changing from their beautiful shades of green to stunning hues of reds, oranges and yellows. The air has gotten crisp and it is clear that summer has slipped into fall.

Change and I have a really odd relationship. On one hand, I embrace change. I love traveling to new places, experiencing new cultures, and meeting new people. It always bothered me when people wouldn't welcome change and settled in their old ways. Change is good. Change promotes growth, learning and understanding the world and those around you.

This said, the other part of me sometimes dreads change. I hate it when people I love move away. It makes me sad when the physical world around me changes too. I remember being ten years old and living in the suburbs of Montreal. Where I lived, there were lots of forests, fields and trees within biking distance from our house. One day, I saw truck after truck hauling out logs. It absolutely crushed me. I cried and wrote a letter to the Minister of the Environment. Yes, even at the tender age of ten, I was somewhat of an activist! The fields near our house soon were developed to make way for new houses. At ten years old, I worried about where all the field mice and other little animals would live if huge houses took over the land where their homes were.

Change as in family members aging and loved ones dying really gets to me too. I know it's part of the cycle of life, but it doesn't make it any easier to handle.

Changes in relationships (with friends, family members, partners, etc) are also sometimes difficult. I was rifling through old boxes a few weeks ago. I wanted to get rid of, donate, recycle and throw away things that I no longer needed to make room for the baby . I came across a Bic Runga CD that someone from my past had given me. This song (the lyrics and not the video!)

always makes me think of the changing relationships one may experience when in early adulthood (or at any point in one's life really). It made me think of how different and more secure my life is now that I'm in my early thirties. It's amazing how many changes can happen in a decade.

Today, with the crisp fall air and the brilliant colours of the leaves, it reminded me of the changes happening in my life right now. In but a few short months, Hubby and I will be parents. That is the most amazing change of all. This change is something I am looking forward to. I know we're in for the adventure of our lives, and I am really excited about our journey through parenthood. I can't wait to meet our little one! Just to illustrate how much I'm embracing this change, I don't even really care that my body is looking a heck of a lot different that it did before or that I've just started getting a few stretch marks. I don't even mind that I have experienced quite a few not so pleasant parts of being pregnant. It's all so very worth it in the end.

13 comments:

D'Rae said...

I just can't get over how adorable you are!

jan said...

Before I got pregnant, I thought I would be jealous of women who still had their figures.

I never was. I felt sorry for them because they were so empty.

You do look adorable.

Rosie : ) said...

Gorgeous pregnant woman! :) You seem to change every time you post a picture. Your belly looks round and pregnant {not like chub}, so cute!

Wow, the leaves are really changing colours, aren't they? {sigh} I wish I could go visit you again. Our leaves are starting to fall already, in some regions.It is sad that the fall leaves aren't a very long process, as they are so beautiful.

Change can be tough, but it generally brings on new experiences, so if we keep it in perspective, it's not a bad thing, right? :)

Cherry said...

Change is good... Change is good.

I have to remind myself often, as I'm not the best at coping with change.

And you, my dear, are facing the biggest changes of all aren't you? Since I "met" you, your story has been nothing but lots of changes. New family members, moving to the country, new students coming and going, and now this... watching your body go through it's second biggest change in your life, and becoming a parent.

Life is boring when it's all the same old same old. Change is good.

C said...

D'Rae:
:) Thank you! You are so sweet! XO

C said...

Jan:
Thanks! I'm starting to feel really happy about the baby bump! Now, whenever I'm out shopping or running errands, people immediately KNOW I'm pregnant. I actually look pregnant and not like I've just had a huge lunch! LOL! ;) In the beginning, when you aren't really showing yet, but your clothes are getting a bit snug, it's hard to tell whether a woman is pregnant or just...well, a little chunky! LOL!

C said...

Rosie:
Merci, ma belle! I noticed that too! I do seem to change every time, eh? Too funny! Maybe on one of our next trips to your neck of the woods, I can get you to take photos of the baby bump! Hopefully by then the belly will be bigger and rounder! I just LOVE your photos :) We're in your neck of the woods once or twice a month. I'm thinking maybe in another two months the belly should be photo worthy!! What do you think?

C said...

Cherry:
You are so right! I hadn't thought about all the change that has happened in the past few years that I've been blogging! Soooooooooo much has happened and so much has changed.

BTW, did you get my msg on FB? :)

Karen MEG said...

So ery worth it, and C, you look so sweet, just beautiful!!

I love this post... it explores that whole concept of change in life and really illustrates that there are times for change and times for settling for a bit. But don't you worry, having children is the greatest adventure of all... change can happen every minute of the day with the; even a millisecond!

But you and John, are so ready. Feel these arms reaching way over for a hug ;)?

Autumn's Mom said...

I feel the same way you do about change. I welcome it and it bothers me at the same time. I love the change in color of the leaves, but miss them when they fall off and blow away. I miss friends and family who have come and gone in my life. But I always try and think that people come and go for a reason. Some are just meant to be with us for a short time to teach us or show what ever we need to learn and then move on.

You are just darn cute there missy. I'm sending you a giant hug right this minute :) I think when we're pregnant with our first babies, we get real reflective about life. And then the baby comes and your life is taken over!

Jeanna said...

That's kind of a sad vid for such a happy time. The sun is out—hoorah!

Rosie : ) said...

Yup, C, Whenever you feel ready to do belly shots, I'd love to do them. :) Hopefully the studio will be *completely* set up by then. I was actually planning on doing some of it tonight. So many things to fix up! :)

louann said...

Yey C! Embracing motherhood is awesome and amazing.

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